About a month ago, John and I moved into a beautiful house, far beyond our wildest dreams—the type of house we’re both accustomed to seeing and touching, but not having.
It takes me back to my days working as a hostess for Landmark Homes. Every shift, I would be tantalized by the stunning displays of architecture, furniture and decor in front of me. The moment I would step into a showhome, I would feel as though I was in a designer clothing store way out of my league.
Fast forward to March 2013, and there I was with John, sitting on the other side of the sales desk, making the most important purchase of my life. In the same way I thought I would never get married, I also never expected to have enough money or patience to buy a new house. Even now, I’m still feeling the excitement and disbelief that comes with owning your first piece of property and home.
So far, our house has brought us nothing but joy. We hear faint sounds of traffic at night rather than police sirens and drunken yelling. We smell fresh and new instead of old and musty. We have an entire basement for our cats to play in rather than a cramped apartment. Overall, we’ve been really happy with the house, and no matter where I am or what I’m doing, I always look forward to coming home.
That being said, I’ve also been feeling a bit guilty. Especially now, around the holiday season, I can’t help but think of the less fortunate who don’t even have a roof over their heads. Some questions that come to mind are: “What on earth did I do to deserve such a nice home? Am I too materialistic for making it a priority?
The pessimist in me also thinks that it’s too good to be true—that because I now own a wonderful home, I’m going to be riddled with bad luck. It doesn’t help that I lost my previous job a few months ago—right before I was about to start paying a mortgage.
I suppose I should stop overthinking it and just be proud of what John and I have worked tirelessly to have. There’s no such thing as too good, too perfect or too much if you’ve been rewarded entirely based on your efforts.
I’d like to toast to my friends and family who, like me, are blessed with health, happiness, and of course, good fortune.